“You need to stop doing this to yourself” she said
“I need this, I need the pain, I caught myself feeling a bit better the other day, thinking about something stupid, wasn’t thinking about you” he said
There’s nothing wrong with you getting on with life
It made me feel like I had forgotten you, forgotten us for that minuet, the pain is the only way I can keep you here
Its shutting them out, they need to grieve with you
They all have someone, I only have these memories, and this pain
You will eventually push them all away
Im scared
I know
If I give them one bit of this love, Im scared it will take something away from our love, and I will loose a piece of you
They don’t understand, they think you are being selfish, you need to tell them how you feel
They are expecting me to move on, to find some way with this and returning to who I was as a person
Not all of them, some of them just want you to live, they will give you all the time you need, don’t shut them out
I can’t risk loosing this, its all I have left of you
You will never loose me, we are forever
I cant, im tired
Go rest, you need some company?
Always
I love you
I love you
1 comment:
Leon, I can never be able to trully understand the pain u are in and it absolutely breaks my heart. Maybe it is a female thing, just wishing I could help even if it's something small like bringing u a cup of coffee, or just sitting there, not talking, but just being there. Or maybe it's the mothering instinct, just wanting to protect u and cocoon u from the world so that u can heal in your own time, and cut that cocoon open when u are ready, only when u are ready and not before. Because there will be a time when u are ready. It may take six months or ten years but that's your way. Tanya will always be with you wherever you are, draw strengt from that in the darkest hours. I love you, I am waiting for you whan u are ready, I am here and always thinking of you.
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